slow down.: November 2006

When you really think about it, lifes only going to be fun if your willing to make it that way. Us, we're good with life right now. In the oh so meaningful words of Jason Mraz, "We won't worry our lives away"

You can turn off the sun, but we're still gonna shine

So shine that light on all of your friends

If you've got the poison, I've got the remedy

A Love Song For No One....

i just have so much to say rite now and want to talk to someone so badly but no one seems to be there so the internet world will just have to do. They really really screwed me up. At the end of the day all the drama, the complication, the blame being put on me and the regret wasn't worth whatever they had made me feel. Wasted time spent sitting, wishing and waiting. Time spent looking back on an old love, or lack thereof. I'm not trying to blame anyone, in the end it was my fault, me & my stupid mouth. The real problem is that i know exactly what to say and do to get what i want, even if i didnt really want it, even if i wanted it just to prove that i could do it- but i promise all over now until im sure its real and its what i want. Maybe i just like the attention i get after i'm able to get their's. If my words, my actions, whatever i've said has rilly hurt you or affected you in any way, all i can say is sorry, whether its good enough or not. But there was always that one i could never get my mind off, time spent reminiscing with regret but im finally completely over all that now and ready to move on. The only question is i dont think i wanna move on with anyone rite now. It'd be simpler if i didnt. I feel guilty easily and i dont wanna feel that way anymore. But new feelings are starting to form for new people, feelings i just dont wanna feel right now. No matter how much good you may be able to do me, i dont wanna hurt anyone anymore but i just can't seem to pull away. It may be that its real, or it just may be that im addicted. I never do this but theres just some things that have to be said. I dont know why im writing this here, i never do this but this time i just think i needed to apologize properly to feel better or maybe i just want to let one that someone know. Sleepless nights, staying up just to write, a love song for no one.

- the other half of candlelightsandsoul

A Love Song For No One....

i just have so much to say rite now and want to talk to someone so badly but no one seems to be there so the internet world will just have to do. They really really screwed me up. At the end of the day all the drama, the complication, the blame being put on me and the regret wasn't worth whatever they had made me feel. Wasted time spent sitting, wishing and waiting. Time spent looking back on an old love, or lack thereof. I'm not trying to blame anyone, in the end it was my fault, me & my stupid mouth. The real problem is that i know exactly what to say and do to get what i want, even if i didnt really want it, even if i wanted it just to prove that i could do it- but i promise all over now until im sure its real and its what i want. Maybe i just like the attention i get after i'm able to get their's. If my words, my actions, whatever i've said has rilly hurt you or affected you in any way, all i can say is sorry, whether its good enough or not. But there was always that one i could never get my mind off, time spent reminiscing with regret but im finally completely over all that now and ready to move on. The only question is i dont think i wanna move on with anyone rite now. It'd be simpler if i didnt. I feel guilty easily and i dont wanna feel that way anymore. But new feelings are starting to form for new people, feelings i just dont wanna feel right now. No matter how much good you may be able to do me, i dont wanna hurt anyone anymore but i just can't seem to pull away. It may be that its real, or it just may be that im addicted. I never do this but theres just some things that have to be said. I dont know why im writing this here, i never do this but this time i just think i needed to apologize properly to feel better or maybe i just want to let one that someone know. Sleepless nights, staying up just to write, a love song for no one.

- the other half of candlelightsandsoul

Life

Human beings are at any time in an emotional state, whether it be calm and collected or frantic excitement. Our emotional state significantly affects the way we act.. This is a two-way effect as our emotional state is also affected by the inference that we create from our perceptions.Lately, our emotional state is not as usual. We see life in a different prespective now, we've learned that evry life we touch will touch us back emotionally and spritually. Some1 once said to us, "you dont miss your water till the well runs dry", in other words, you dont know what you have got until its gone. 'Cause of that, weve learned to appreciate the people we haf around us, treasure every sunrise, every raindrop that hits our nose, , the feeling of sand between our toes. Be moved by the tears of a child, and try to fix the cause. Be grease, not glue. Breathe deep, exhale slowly, and never miss a chance to help another. Sometimes we cant hold on to what we have forever, sometimes they just slip away from the palms of our hands so we have learned to just do what he hafta do with no regret. Regret sometimes continuouslymake us recreate our past. We recreate the past in the present by recalling it and the consequence of this is that our future becomes a reflection of our past. When we haf regrets ,we are simply reinforcing those aspects of our lives that we don't like. We now no longer live our live with regret and we are no longer scared to take risks because that is what life is all about...

"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for"

to be continued....(maybe)

- one half of candlelightandsoul